I am seriously happy right now, I haven't had internet at home for like, two years or more (it wasn't even OUR internet before...). And then when I learned I could go over to my grandma-in-law's house for it, despite that it wasn't far away, it was hard to commit to a schedule. I'd started checking my emails every other day after a mishap could have been avoided if I was checking my email more. But this event would also be the last time I was talking to anybody or any association in which this would be important (read: the connections I had to people offline were now dropping off, too).
TL;DR because you all know I'm a huge chatterbox about this stuff: I'd been doing a lot of life stuff which involve my mental health (and more recently, my physical health) and now that I have internet, I can have a social life again.
My biggest concern however is that I've been gone so long, and among other bits mostly driven by anxiety, I'm a little intimidated coming back to DeviantART. I realize that I've had friends on here and skype that I used to talk to on a frequent basis back in say, 2013, 2014 - arguably when my account was at its height in activity. I know many people have left. There is a large watcher list of abandoned accounts and people I used to know but don't talk anymore (or don't talk to ME anymore), and it feels like now I finally have to finally pick up the pieces of what feels like a broken account. Maybe it's the way I'm looking at it that's broken. Maybe it's more that I need to start over (not changing accounts of course) and treat this like a new account again despite the history. Try to rekindle old friendships that faded simply out of inability to communicate because of my lack of internet connection. Because I know there are plenty of people I couldn't keep talking to not because it was their fault, but because I know longer had the resources to keep talking.
I'll try to be more active on DeviantART again if I see it as a viable place to communicate and share my ideas. Because I really value the communication part, but sometimes it's hard when you have social anxiety or feel like no one responds back when you say something.
Kinda makes it feel like it's pointless.
As for art, I still don't have anything to post for now, but I'll let you know when my declared art hiatus is over, because thank god my internet hiatus has finally ended! I'M BAAAAAACK!
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