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I.
HAVE.
INTERNET!!!!! :D:D:D:D

I am seriously happy right now, I haven't had internet at home for like, two years or more (it wasn't even OUR internet before...). And then when I learned I could go over to my grandma-in-law's house for it, despite that it wasn't far away, it was hard to commit to a schedule. I'd started checking my emails every other day after a mishap could have been avoided if I was checking my email more. But this event would also be the last time I was talking to anybody or any association in which this would be important (read: the connections I had to people offline were now dropping off, too).

TL;DR because you all know I'm a huge chatterbox about this stuff: I'd been doing a lot of life stuff which involve my mental health (and more recently, my physical health) and now that I have internet, I can have a social life again.

My biggest concern however is that I've been gone so long, and among other bits mostly driven by anxiety, I'm a little intimidated coming back to DeviantART. I realize that I've had friends on here and skype that I used to talk to on a frequent basis back in say, 2013, 2014 - arguably when my account was at its height in activity. I know many people have left. There is a large watcher list of abandoned accounts and people I used to know but don't talk anymore (or don't talk to ME anymore), and it feels like now I finally have to finally pick up the pieces of what feels like a broken account. Maybe it's the way I'm looking at it that's broken. Maybe it's more that I need to start over (not changing accounts of course) and treat this like a new account again despite the history. Try to rekindle old friendships that faded simply out of inability to communicate because of my lack of internet connection. Because I know there are plenty of people I couldn't keep talking to not because it was their fault, but because I know longer had the resources to keep talking.

I'll try to be more active on DeviantART again if I see it as a viable place to communicate and share my ideas. Because I really value the communication part, but sometimes it's hard when you have social anxiety or feel like no one responds back when you say something. ^^; Kinda makes it feel like it's pointless.

As for art, I still don't have anything to post for now, but I'll let you know when my declared art hiatus is over, because thank god my internet hiatus has finally ended! I'M BAAAAAACK!

Feel free to comment, leave suggestions, ask the OC questions, or whatever. :u

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Raenafyn
☆Star Kid
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Welcome to my art page! If you have entered and are looking for aliens and silly shit, you've come to the right place! This page hosts mainly SFW art with some (tame) nudity on occasion. Please keep comments clean. I am open for roleplay!

I love talking to you all, so feel free to leave me messages and notes! If you just watched me, or have been watching since 2010, I don't care who you are, I'm 99% sure I'll enjoy talking to you as long as you don't intentionally cause trouble. .w.

:iconraenafyn: :heart: :icondirector-james:
Gender Flags - Genderqueer by TwinkJinx Gender Symbols - Agender by TwinkJinx Sexual Orientations - Asexual by TwinkJinx

Pronouns: They/Them

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Finally gone through all of my messages! Now to go and collapse somewhere for a few hours and attempt to get back motivation.
That feel when you're being productive at something, but it's not the "right" kind of productivity and you just feel like you've been lazy forever.
In context with my previous status post, if I have ever said something stupid or hurtful to you, feel free to let me know because I either
1) didn't mean it the way it came out because I am terrible at articulating my thoughts, which sometimes causes even well-intentioned things to sound bad
2) was young and stupid
3) was going stream-of-consciousness and saying things as I thought them, despite that it takes me MUCH longer to plan what I want to say in a way that isn't dumb

And I am sorry about that, and I will try to avoid making the mistake again.

And I will absolutely admit that I'm a shit sometimes, or that sometimes I say things that are hurtful and for the most part, I don't mean it. Now if you do something to legitimately make me mad however, I will call you out on your wrongs. Just because I'm willing to apologize for being wrong or being hurtful doesn't mean that me calling you out on bad behavior counts as me "being mean". Can I admit some arguments I've had were either not worth it or absolutely stupid to have in the first place? Absolutely. But I've seriously also had people trying to get away with being assholes, and then complain that *I'm* the bad one because I dared call them out on their behavior, or for me even being WARY of potential for bad behavior on their part.

I think I'm rambling. But in short, I try to be a decent person. And that also includes admitting when I'm being hurtful and trying to make up for it. Idk, I hope it helps for something.
I finally went to search for my dumb comment from fucking 8 years ago that I otherwise regretted. I didn't even realize the whole fucking story because I was hasty in removing an otherwise inflammatory comment from my sight.
Context: it was a anti-stamp of someone disagreeing with a particular pairing, but all I saw was that I had called something homophobic. Turns out, my real comment to the stamp itself was respectful and mainly "lol I wouldn't know who I'd ship this character with", and my "homophobe" comment was to a different commenter who described gay pairings as wrong. And here I had an existential crisis of being a tumblr stereotype at 18 when I usually have pretty good recall over my dumb-ass mistakes. Mind you, this all ALSO happened years  before I began identifying as LGBT+ in any sense; before I identified as nonbinary, as panromantic, asexual, and what-have-you. At worst, I would have been an obnoxious, probably not-good ally. Granted, it's not wise to have conversations with someone who's just fulfilled the definition of a homophobe by their own words, and even less wise to simply outright yell it at them. Again, I was VERY new to dA (like my second month of dA new) and being able to properly talk to people online was new. I didn't have a good filter and it took me a while to learn that it's better to not get involved with stuff if I don't need to. And that thank fucking god I understand the difference between talking to someone to make constructive arguments and just shouting at someone just to feel better about myself. Because shouting bullshit on the internet doesn't solve anything. :B
But I'm seriously glad I had only responded that way to an actual confirmed homophobe and not to the stamp maker themselves. On the plus side, my ridiculous comments are now expunged from said post! Regardless of the fact it turned out to not be as bad as I thought, it's still immature, even if it's been 8 years and people should know better. But people clearly don't read the dates things are posted soooooooo delete.
I.
HAVE.
INTERNET!!!!! :D:D:D:D

I am seriously happy right now, I haven't had internet at home for like, two years or more (it wasn't even OUR internet before...). And then when I learned I could go over to my grandma-in-law's house for it, despite that it wasn't far away, it was hard to commit to a schedule. I'd started checking my emails every other day after a mishap could have been avoided if I was checking my email more. But this event would also be the last time I was talking to anybody or any association in which this would be important (read: the connections I had to people offline were now dropping off, too).

TL;DR because you all know I'm a huge chatterbox about this stuff: I'd been doing a lot of life stuff which involve my mental health (and more recently, my physical health) and now that I have internet, I can have a social life again.

My biggest concern however is that I've been gone so long, and among other bits mostly driven by anxiety, I'm a little intimidated coming back to DeviantART. I realize that I've had friends on here and skype that I used to talk to on a frequent basis back in say, 2013, 2014 - arguably when my account was at its height in activity. I know many people have left. There is a large watcher list of abandoned accounts and people I used to know but don't talk anymore (or don't talk to ME anymore), and it feels like now I finally have to finally pick up the pieces of what feels like a broken account. Maybe it's the way I'm looking at it that's broken. Maybe it's more that I need to start over (not changing accounts of course) and treat this like a new account again despite the history. Try to rekindle old friendships that faded simply out of inability to communicate because of my lack of internet connection. Because I know there are plenty of people I couldn't keep talking to not because it was their fault, but because I know longer had the resources to keep talking.

I'll try to be more active on DeviantART again if I see it as a viable place to communicate and share my ideas. Because I really value the communication part, but sometimes it's hard when you have social anxiety or feel like no one responds back when you say something. ^^; Kinda makes it feel like it's pointless.

As for art, I still don't have anything to post for now, but I'll let you know when my declared art hiatus is over, because thank god my internet hiatus has finally ended! I'M BAAAAAACK!

Feel free to comment, leave suggestions, ask the OC questions, or whatever. :u
No big change, but finally changed my name on here to ☆Star Kid. :u My username will still be Raenafyn, but now you have something to actually call me separate from the character of the same name.

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citytoon Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hi
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Raenafyn Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello!
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:iconcitytoon:
citytoon Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
long time no see
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Raenafyn Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, I recognize your art, so I remember who you are. XD
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DarkX1122 Featured By Owner May 1, 2017
Check my accidental replies to Fluffyz on that one piece. Y:
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Raenafyn Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
"That one piece", I guess I'll have to start searching the most recent ones then XD
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